I have a small book in Dutch containing three speeches that Turkish writer Orhan Pamuk gave on different occasions when accepting awards for literary work. The three speeches all deal with the theme of writing, approaching this subject from different angles. This and the next two Sundays I want to read the speeches and discuss them here.
The first speech in the collection is My Father’s Suitcase, Orhan Pamuk’s acceptance speech when he received the Nobel Prize for literature in 2006. You can read this speech here. This essay also appears in Pamuk’s collection of essays Other Colors.
Pamuk recounts how, a few years before his death, his father gave him a small, black leather suitcase containing his (Pamuk’s father’s) writings. He asked his son not to open it before his death. As long as Pamuk could remember, his father had written, but he had never published anything. Pamuk knew the suitcase, it had been in his father’s possession for a long time:
This suitcase was a familiar friend, a powerful reminder of my childhood, my past, but now I couldn’t even touch it. Why? No doubt it was because of the mysterious weight of its contents.(…)I am now going to speak of this weight’s meaning. It is what a person creates when he shuts himself up in a room, sits down at a table, and retires to a corner to express his thoughts – that is, the meaning of literature.
From here, Pamuk continues with his thoughts about the meaning of literature and the task of being a writer.
Orhan Pamuk doesn’t really believe in inspiration (or should I say Inspiration). Writing is more of a craft, a question of stubbornness and patience. But that is not enough either:
To become a writer, patience and toil are not enough: we must first feel compelled to escape crowds, company, the stuff of ordinary, everyday life, and shut ourselves up in a room. We wish for patience and hope so that we can create a deep world in our writing. But the desire to shut oneself up in a room is what pushes us into action.(…)The starting point of true literature is the man who shuts himself up in his room with his books.
To Pamuk on the one hand, a writer is someone who locks himself away from the noise of his surroundings, from the community and everyday life, who works hard and looks inward:
A writer is someone who spends years patiently trying to discover the second being inside him, and the world that makes him who he is: when I speak of writing, what comes first to my mind is not a novel, a poem, or literary tradition, it is a person who shuts himself up in a room, sits down at a table, and alone, turns inward; amid its shadows, he builds a new world with words
To write is to turn this inward gaze into words, to study the world into which that person passes when he retires into himself, and to do so with patience, obstinacy, and joy.
On the other hand, though, a writer is also part of tradition, part of all the writers, books and stories that were there before him. Other people’s stories are just as essential for a writer as the seclusion he finds when he locks himself away in a room. Which is why Pamuk consistently talks about a writer locking himself in a room with books.
In the seventies, when Pamuk started to create his own library, i.e. to collect the stories of others, he felt very strongly that he and with him his country Turkey was situated outside of the center, far away from where ‘It’ was happening both in the world in general and in literature. Opening his father’s suitcase so many years later reminded Pamuk of this feeling of living in the provinces to return, together with the fear of being unable to be authentic. Both would become major themes in Pamuk’s own writing, the secret wounds he carries inside himself:
For me, to be a writer is to acknowledge the secret wounds that we carry inside us, the wounds so secret that we ourselves are barely aware of them, and to patiently explore them, know them, illuminate them, to own these pains and wounds, and to make them a conscious part of our spirits and our writing.
A writer talks of things that everyone knows but does not know they know.
Over the years Pamuk overcame this feeling of living in the provinces. He now thinks that the idea of the world having a center where ‘Everything’ happens is being blown out of proportion, has been made too important. For Pamuk, the task of contemporary literature is most of all to tell and examine the stories of those who do not live in the center, the stories of what happens outside of the center.
About the task of contemporary literature Pamuk says:
What literature needs most to tell and investigate today are humanity’s basic fears: the fear of being left outside, and the fear of counting for nothing, and the feelings of worthlessness that come with such fears; the collective humiliations, vulnerabilities, slights, grievances, sensitivities, and imagined insults, and the nationalist boasts and inflations that are their next of kind … Whenever I am confronted by such sentiments, and by the irrational, overstated language in which they are usually expressed, I know they touch on a darkness inside me. We have often witnessed peoples, societies and nations outside the Western world – and I can identify with them easily – succumbing to fears that sometimes lead them to commit stupidities, all because of their fears of humiliation and their sensitivities. I also know that in the West – a world with which I can identify with the same ease – nations and peoples taking an excessive pride in their wealth, and in their having brought us the Renaissance, the Enlightenment, and Modernism, have, from time to time, succumbed to a self-satisfaction that is almost as stupid.
In the end, Pamuk is of the opinion that it doesn’t matter whether one lives in the center of the world, in the place where everything happens: The world a writer creates, goes beyond that. In that created world the question of whether there is a center and how important that place is, is of no importance at all any more.
[W]riting and literature are intimately linked to a lack at the centre of our lives, and to our feelings of happiness and guilt.
I have only been able to convey a small part of what Pamuk talked about in this speech. It is a very thought-provoking text that deserves to be read more than once. I am not sure whether I agree with Pamuk that a writer should seclude himself from everything around him, but I can agree with what he says later on about a writer being part of the tradition of writing and about literature exploring that which is outside of the center. Then again, I don’t think I have finished thinking about this text yet. I am looking forward to reading the other two speeches in this collection.
Finally, I want to share a quote from the speech about why Pamuk writes:
I write because I have an innate need to write! I write because I can’t do normal work like other people. I write because I want to read books like the ones I write. I write because I am angry at all of you, angry at everyone. I write because I love sitting in a room all day writing. I write because I can only partake in real life by changing it. I write because I want others, all of us, the whole world, to know what sort of life we lived, and continue to live, in Istanbul, in Turkey. I write because I love the smell of paper, pen, and ink. I write because I believe in literature, in the art of the novel, more than I believe in anything else. I write because it is a habit, a passion. I write because I am afraid of being forgotten. I write because I like the glory and interest that writing brings. I write to be alone. Perhaps I write because I hope to understand why I am so very, very angry at all of you, so very, very angry at everyone. I write because I like to be read. I write because once I have begun a novel, an essay, a page, I want to finish it. I write because everyone expects me to write. I write because I have a childish belief in the immortality of libraries, and in the way my books sit on the shelf. I write because it is exciting to turn all of life’s beauties and riches into words. I write not to tell a story, but to compose a story. I write because I wish to escape from the foreboding that there is a place I must go but – just as in a dream – I can’t quite get there. I write because I have never managed to be happy. I write to be happy.
You can read this text here.